“Children are great imitators. So give them something great to imitate” -Anonymous
Baby Notes: These past few weeks have been nothing but jammed packed, and honestly my anxiety about planning for the baby has not made it any easier to cope with. I find myself literally sitting down almost every night writing down exact figures of how much items will cost me for the baby when he/she arrives, figuring out how to save money ahead of time, researching how to avoid breast milk from drying out, and on and on and on. Without fail almost every person I talk with says “Just enjoy being pregnant, everything will work out”.
I smile and nod, but in the back of my mind I am screaming “WHO IS GOING TO WORK IN ORDER FOR THEM TO WORK OUT???” Then I got a call that changed my life. I was informed that we lost one of the most influential people in my life: a man that treated me like one of his own, a man I deemed my godfather, the man that gave me my first job and taught me how to read a map. Bro. Payton was what I called him, but devastated was what I felt. At his service I listened to person after person tell beautiful stories about how valuable they made him feel; how when they spoke with him there seemed to be no one else more important. People remembered how he made them feel, not always exactly what he did. I realized that no matter how much I planned for this little miracle of mine that it wasn’t the type of diapers they wore that would be remembered, but how much I kissed them goodnight and hugged them when they were down. I still haven’t quite figured out exactly how to juggle being in the moment and planning for the evident perfectly, but I can say when my niece reaches for a kiss, my iPad gets put down.
Weeks 13-16: As far as appointments go, Byron and I had the wonderful opportunity to meet with a specialist to discuss how my fibroids might complicate the remainder of my pregnancy and delivery. Our specialist was nothing short of the most passionate doctor I have ever met. He not only offered advice on how to address possibly post-partum complications, but also how to just live life more healthy and from a place of happiness and gratitude. I have had very limited pain with my fibroid since my week of bed rest and I am currently deciding to believe that everything will be just as God has planned for our little one to enter this world.
I don’t take it for granted that I am surrounded by absolute amazing women in my life. So again I am so blessed to now have ongoing monthly fellowship with three of my beautiful college friends that I also get to call “sistas”. We all are a part of one of the most beautiful sisterhoods that was formed at the University of Redlands entitled “WRW”. We all are either expecting or parenting our first child. It was like being amongst the “gurus” of pregnancy when meeting with these ladies a few weeks ago. After our brunch we got to spend some magical time at a beachfront park with Lisa’s daughter, Sirena (pictured below).
Speaking of good times, Byron, baby, and I got to celebrate Uncle Patrick’s birthday with him this year (Byron’s Brother). Byron’s brothers and I have known each other since we were kids and I am so excited to watch them play sports and spoil their little niece or nephew.
Last week I got the chance to watch my niece and nephew play in a basketball game in our hometown. It was so surreal for me as I was in the room when my niece was delivered; now she is almost taller than me. After the game I took a quick shot of of all the kids after realizing that all the cousins on my side of the family were together for the first time in months. Very soon Baby Dozier will be sitting right with them!!!
We are at the top of month four!!! Time is flying by.
Today the baby is the size of: a turnip
Cravings: anything anybody else is eating, fish
Next Appointment: April 5th
Mochi Update: It is getting quite difficult caring for Mochi in recent weeks. Byron and I are gone so much working and I feel terrible how much time she spends alone. We are currently trying to figure out alternative solutions to make sure she is getting the attention she needs but let’s just say we are feeling her wrath of isolation. She has start doing things like peeing in the house again and biting me when she doesn’t get her way. SOMEBODY HELP!!!! lol
Mommy feels: Pretty good!!!!! We are hoping next time the blog is updated that we will have very exciting news about the baby for you all!
Thank you for joining us on this wonderful journey!
Always with love,